i don't know how to put this into words , I'm just not ready for any relationships , and i don't want this decision to spoil friendship . To me , our friendship comes first , i really treasure you and don't wanna lose a friend like you no matter what happens . i don't wanna be formal to you , i want to have the fun , laughter conversations and messages that we used to have . I'm sorry if I've hurt you directly or indirectly .