Friday, April 30, 2010 { 6:56 PM }

☆★кυℓvιи!★☆ says:
can you do me a favour ?
please change your PM

WaD u SaiD SuRPRiSeD Me....HoPe THinGs wiLL WoRK wELL FoR uS says:
why??? whats wrong with my pm??

☆★кυℓvιи!★☆ says:
dont need to act so much , please jus change your PM

WaD u SaiD SuRPRiSeD Me....HoPe THinGs wiLL WoRK wELL FoR uS says:
i know you don love me... plzz just give me a chance... i am not like otherz..

☆★кυℓvιи!★☆ says:
you don't have to . recently someone also wanted to prove me wrong , but he proved me that all guys are the same . they'll somehow leave you and go . so yeah , don't bother liking me or whatsoever .

WaD u SaiD SuRPRiSeD Me....HoPe THinGs wiLL WoRK wELL FoR uS says:
one chance is all i ask for...

☆★кυℓvιи!★☆ says:
look i don't need any guys love , i'm jus fine the way i am right now .

its weird how guys always wanna prove you that they're different , but at the end of the day , they all turned out to be the same .

School was as per normal , went school and went home with Liana (Jill)
Sam came over to do his iPhone , went Subway for lunch , went to grandmother house .
Haresh came over to grandmother house , now all the guys went down to drink , and i'm gonna go back to grandmother house to keep the company (:

Thursday, April 29, 2010 { 8:09 PM }

School was a lil boring today , finished the math paper , science lesson did filing , English lesson was a free period , mother tounge did filing and 2 papers of work , CD as usual BORING .

Phone kept vibrating during lessons and all . Sam ( cousin ) , Amira , Jessica , Dawn , some unknown person (got nice scolding from me) and Nelly were texting me .

I've just read Anisha blog , and she is super duper sweet :D
she a super duper long post about me .
PS ; Alisa , i don't wanna show that picture to my friends and all la , i know i looked damn diff and all . i wanna act simple wad , maybe next time then I'll show them . (:

I wanna put the link here but its like her blog is private and all .
so i will copy some part and paste it here . (:

I first met Kulvin when she was only 13. We met at Ashveer house on his 18th birthday. I remember she was very shy. At first i thought she was 16 but she told me she was only 13.
I added her up on Friendster and we started chatting and talking on the phone. She is one of the sweetest girl i have ever met. In such a young age, she have helped me in many ways, always keeping me happy, hating seeing me sad.She even stopped me from smoking.She have never complained nor said anything to hurt me.She have always gave me advise when i was down and no matter how tired she is, she makes sure i will reach home safely at 12.30am and only then she would go sleep. She have always cheered me up even though she was down. When i have my break-ups, she was always there for me telling me to not cry for the guy as he don't deserve my tears.She always assure me there is some guy out there for me.She will always forgive her enemy and people who hurt her.She will always forgive and forget. According to her, humans make mistake.

Some secret about her that she always hide from everyone . (MUHAHAHAHA)
1. She can SING - Don't deny it. Ashveer has also heard you singing.
2. She is an AWESOME DANCER- see her dancing at her cousin's weddings/birthday and the performance on my 21 is the proof.
3. She is a good MODEL- I got an A in my project!
4. She can play the guitar- Not so good but still you can play it.
5.She is a very very very SHY PERSON! trust me.
I DARE YOU TO PUT THIS UP ON YOUR BLOG IF YOU EVER READ THIS.

Thanks Kulvin for being there for me no matter what.I really love and treasure you.I promise to always be there for you when you need me.

That's all i grab from her blog.

To Anisha ,
I'm speechless , i really LOVE THE LONG POST ! you rock (:
3 years knowing you was the best thing , have never regret knowing you .
And see i did the DARE . i seriously don't sing, dance , play the guitar , i totally suck in guitar , used to play it in Primary school , have not touch a guitar for a very very long time . And the model thing suppose to be a secret ! but anyways , i still did the dare :D
we must really meet up after my exams are over !

Wednesday, April 28, 2010 { 7:32 PM }

Exams were alright ,
English was a lil challenging but can pass for sure .
Never really bother doing the malay paper properly .

Its weird that i suddenly don't trust people around me .
they're my friends , family etc but i can only trust 2-4 out of 30 ?
and sometimes i wonder if some friends are really my friends .
and i can't hope that everything will be alright as i no longer have the belief .

Can't wait to leave Queensway Secondary . (:

To S____ ,

I know you've been trying to impress me since January this year and the way i react is kinda obvious that we'll never be together . You make me feel guilty when i walk pass your class and you shout my name or run out from class to say hi , and i just ignore it or just give a one word answer . I don't wanna talk much and give you false hope . Please do not go around asking my friends for my number . There is a reason why i never give you my number when you asked for it . You'll find someone better than me .

Tuesday, April 27, 2010 { 11:30 PM }

I so dun believe in Interpersonal love .
There are 2 different kinds of love .
Impersonal love and Interpersonal love .

in short , Impersonal love is when you love a thing , goal , animals , activities etc .
Interpersonal love refers to between human beings . Family , friends , couple etc .

I even feel weird telling my friends 'love you' , i just don't mean it . i don't want to show a fake love and all . The word love as many different kinds of meaning . sometimes we do mix up love with crush .

crush ; you LIKE that person ONLY for a short time
love ; you SERIOUSLY LIKE that person and you would do anything to get him/her because you want to share with him/her your life, its like someone you want to live with for the rest of your life .

Monday, April 26, 2010 { 7:45 PM }

I won't be blogging much as exams are nearing and i dont really like coming online much .

Li Leng as been a bitch , all the class girls are ignoring her .
lessons are getting interesting all of a sudden .
tuition days will on Sundays (:

you've proved me correct and proved yourself wrong . (:
i'm glad whatever i said/believed came true .

Friday, April 23, 2010 { 11:08 PM }

came up with something random (:

Never say I love you
If you really don't care .

Never talk about feelings
If they aren't really there .

Never hold my hand
If you are going to break my heart .

Never say you're going to
If you don't really plan to start .

Never look into my eyes
If all you do is lie .

Never say hello
If what you really mean is goodbye.

If you really mean forever
Then say you will try.

Never say forever
Cause forever makes me cry.

{ 8:31 PM }

today was a really awesome day . (:

Came home about 2 plus so only slept about 3 am , woke up at the usual time .
Mummy told me to skip school but i obviously didn't , would have regretted if i skipped .
Met Menatchi in the bus and went school with her . talked and all .

Lessons were as always slacky , math is like gone case .
Mr Leong WY will only come to class 15 minutes after the bell ring , then lecture us for another 15-20 minutes then we'll only go through a few questions and it'll be end of lessons . -.-
English was like a lil boring , i slept during CPA , completed the whole paper in 5-10 mins , and was damn sleepy . Assembly is getting way way too BORING . can't they do something interesting than doing all that crap .

1st month ; single ; attached ; confused ; complicated .
not gonna say anything about this , hopefully u liked the gift .

Investiture :D
a lil cock up , but it was soo awesomeeee :D
haha , thanks Fatimah , Shiling to make me cry a lil .
so gonna miss you , even tho i do hate being a prefect ,
it was actually a fun journey and all (:
So gonna miss everyone .
and and the gifts and all were soooo nice , LOVE IT !

tomorrow ,
Tuition at my house (:
family gathering ( so not looking forward to it )
have to complete all my homework .
have to do lots of revision (:

___ texted me if i wanna meet him and his friend .
even after getting whack and all , still wanna go out with me .
didn't reply him too .

Wont really be replying to random texts already . (:

Wednesday, April 21, 2010 { 7:38 PM }

I MISS YOU VERY VERY VERY MUCHHHH ! ):
its like i really wanna chat with you and all ,
but there is nothing to talk about ,
and i keep gettig butterflies .

Friday QUICKLY COME !
1st month and finally stepping down from prefects (:

Tuesday, April 20, 2010 { 6:50 PM }

• Guys who ask me how many ex i have , who they were and why did we break up .

• Guys who will only wanna be friends if you're single .

Reason : there is no harm to be friends when a girl is attach , as if her boyfriend will kill you or something .

• Guys who tells me that they like/love me when i don't even know them .

Reason : you don't even know me , you don't even know whether I'm a good or a bad person . Please don't judge a book by its cover .

• Guys who ask me to meet up when i barely know them for a month .

Reason : i don't know what kind of person are you , i don't even know you well , so i wont feel comfortable with you and all .

• Guys who tell lies to impress girls .

Reason : every girl will sure wanna know the true you and not know somebody who is so not you . we girls were just accept the way you are . there is no point being friends with someone just because he is good looking or hot . the personality and character really plays an important role . (not all girls , but i will )

Monday, April 19, 2010 { 7:19 PM }

got updated about yesterday ,
Out of the 2 guys , my cousins whacked 1 of the person .
felt bad for the person as he was my friend . but i really cant stop my cousins for doing anything .
everyone knows that when i'm with my cousins , you guys should back off , its nt really your fault either , you didn't really knew about it . But its like u kinda used a rude approach , so yeah .

gonna sleep soon , since i'm having problems sleeping ):
betta i jus go to sleep soon since i'm super sleepy right now .

Jus now had prefect rehearsal and all , GONNA STEP DOWN SOON :D
cant wait . after rehearsal , it was raining , go me and hazel kinda ended up getting wet and all .
but it was fun (:

Sunday, April 18, 2010 { 11:45 PM }

jus gonna do a short post before sleeping ,
met Amrit at Boon Keng mrt and walked to Khalsa ,
saw so many ppl but there were many Desi there .
walked around and all , slacked at lvl 2
met afew cousins and friends ,
played pool .
Slacked with Bal , Sam , Jeetin , Vicky and co .
drank and all , it was nt a bad thing since i was with cousins and it wasn't so strong since i got school tmr and all .
had 3-4 guys taking care of me so nobody will even disturb me ,
2 guy almost got whacked when they tried to disturb me , but cousins just asked thm to fuck off .
danced and all , met even more ppl there , had lots of fights going on but i didn't had to worry since i had my cousins and their friends with me , they even followed me to toilet so that i wont be disturbed and all , mummy and malvin were on the way home frm movies , so they came to fetch me . overall , Mela was boring but had a good time with my cousins and all .

Sorry to Amrit and all for leaving you guys half way , had a geat time with you ppl too .
wanna know wad happen , jus call me , got lots of stuff i nvr update .

now wanna sleep alr , got sch to go tmr , dun wanna skip it .

{ 12:06 AM }

Friday, April 16, 2010 { 9:53 PM }

Thursday, April 15, 2010 { 11:56 PM }

Didn't blog for awhile as i didn't had the time .

Tuesday , back to sch and all .
completed my coursework for CPA :D

Wednesday , New Year :D
since i had EBS coursework , had to go sch .
Mr Singh didn't come school and Miss Kaur took half day.
after sch , met up with Amira and went Jurong Point .
updated each other and all (:
SUNNY TEXTED ME :D (finally)
went home , got ready and went temple .
after temple went Harwin house
got forced to stay over .
brother-in-law forced me , mummy and Harwin to meet him at Dunlop .
went to some pub opposite mumbai , got forced to drink and take a tequila shot .
Saw Jeetin , Sewak , Sassi and a few people there .
decided to go Mumbai for awhile .
nobody was there expect Sunny , Balraj , 1 staff and a dancer .
damnnn BORING , once again cousin ordered Black Label with coke .
Sunny made the drink damnn stronggg . i admit i was half drunk -.-
but i was in my sense (: after the whole clubbing thing ,
got this group of Indian men were damnn irritating .

Me , Harwin , Harvin , Mummy , Tina , Param , this 21 yr old guy (forgot the name) , and other 2 people went to have breakfast near bendemeer . Me , Harwin and the 21-yr-old guy were quiet while everyone else were in a debate .

since me and the 21-yr-old guy were the youngest , we were rotting there , both of us were eating ice all the way . everyone left around 4plus , reached boon keng , got changed and i VOMITED a lil only uh . damnnn gross la . THANKS TO THE TEQUILA AND SUNNY !

so Mr Satnam Singh a.k.a SUNNY , please text me asap to get your scolding :D
and i still do remember the promise i made .

Thursday - SLEPT the whole day , texted afew friends and slacked . just came home , so gonna prepare for tomorrow .

Today - SPEECH DAY and all , might go Arab street after that .

I had to kinda be a lil detailed since MISS ALISA wants me to type more .

Monday, April 12, 2010 { 11:25 PM }

Life is like back to normal , :D
YAY-ness , not gonna care abt that matter already !

Sunny text me !!! i need to tell you somethingggg :D

Planning to shift house at Upper Boon Keng ,
we wanted to shift to Bukit Panjang but Boon Keng is betta ,
Bendemeer is nearby :D
once again I'm obsessed and i like it ! (:

the usual people like Alisa and Ash would be blur about it .
text me and i'll tell you about it .

Sunday, April 11, 2010 { 6:19 PM }

only had 4 hours sleep .
reached Amg Mo Kio late . when i went in , the first person i saw was Sunny !
drank tea and all , Shawn was in his usual playful mood , reshvin and avinash came around 10.30
babysitting was fun today :D
went Harwin house and slack , played games with the kiddos and all .

Yash called me , he needed help , so yeah .
we will sure meet up one day yeah .
maybe after mid-yr . (:

tomorrow is monday :S
back to school ):
whenever i see _____ , i'll be super duper happy but its like useless .
i can't even talk to him .

Saturday, April 10, 2010 { 11:54 PM }

spend the whole afternoon at cousin's house , since they had the housewarming prayers .
Avinash was damnnn cute :D , Shawn was super funny , he even said 'I LOVE YOU' to a young girl and called her cute girl . (:

had to go for the band concert since i've already promise my sayang (Fhad) :D
sat infront , was kinda okay la , met Irfan there , he showed me his 'dog' (his BB friend)
damnnn cute ! Irfan sat with us :D , had fun talking to him and also took pics (:
since i didn't have to go to Kallang or Ang Mo Kio anymore , i decided to join Fhad , Dawn and Hazel for dinner.

Next week , gonna start studying :D (hopefully)

Friday, April 9, 2010 { 11:31 PM }

since i'm kinda lazy to blog much , i'm jus gonna have a short post .

School - SLACKY

NPCC - F**KED UP !
Sec 1's dunno how to even do any single shit , so had to shout , scold and teach them once again .
Only 13 sec 2's came -.-
Chng made some of us to make people come for NPCC after the hall rehearsal .
Kenneth is damnnn ______ !

i'm only free to go out on sat night and sunday .
next week will be fri night , Sat night and sunday .
if wanna meet up , jus text me .

Thursday, April 8, 2010 { 9:43 PM }

there was once a time when
we used to meet up almost everyday ,
text almost every minute .
there was once a time
i could tell you everything ,
only you could understand me .
it was only you i fell for after months ,
assuring me that all guys aren't the same .
allowing me fall in love once again ,
there was a time ,
when i was a part of your life ,
where everything was perfect .
where is the guy who always had time for me ?
who made me feel so special ,
who made me love you even more .

Now all that are gone ,
i only can live with all the memories .
everything is so meaningless without you .
no matter what , i still trust and love you like before .
i don't expect you to spend 24 hrs of your time with me ,
even 5 mins will do .

you said you had no time and all ,
but you had lots of time to spend time with 2 girls in the library .
you didn't reply my text , i didn't make it a big issue .
i'm trying all my best to make things work ,
but it seems that it make no difference to you .

{ 6:15 PM }

{ 2:11 AM }

Taken medications but its not working ,
i can't seem to fall asleep .
whenever i close my eyes ,
the memories will jus keep coming back .


If your crush asked you out, would you go?
*I don't have a crush .

How’s your life?
* Complicated .

Anything exciting happening this weekend?
* maybe ?

What did you today?
* Basically I did nothing .

What is your favorite type of music?
* Those meaningful ones really get me going .

Favorite type of chips?
* Pringles, Lays .

How many pics of just you do you have?
* That, I don't know .

How was your New Years?
* It started of with a blast but ended like fuck . I would say it was e worst new year's ever .

What are your three favorite words, why?
* i don't know . telling to much is not good (:

Getting your hair cut anytime soon?
* nope .

Will you be single this coming Valentine’s?
* that , i don't really know .

If so, will you be okay with that?
* yeah (:

Next time you want a boyfriend/girlfriend?
* ..

Do you have any gay/bi friends?
* nope .

Do you have any gay/bi family members?
* Nope .

How about gay/bi pets?
* -.-

How old will you be this year?
* 16

Any exciting party?
* depends .

Do you have a camera?
* yeah .

What’s something you just don’t give a fuck about?
* People who just don't matter and haters .

How many people have you loved with in the past five years?
* Alot !

When will you drink next?
* i don't know .

Think of the person you’d like to be with the most right now, when did you last talk to them?
* tuesday .

1 month ago, what was your love life like?
* I was single back then .

Is someone mad at you?
* I don't know .

Where is the person you miss most?
* home , sleeping .

Is the last person you kissed older than you?
* nope . 15 yrs younger .

Think of the last person you told “I love you” to, did you mean it?
* Duh .

Have you ever kissed someone whos name starts with a C?
* No .

Have you ever kissed someone who’s name started with M?
* yes .

Who did you last say I love you to?
* ________ .

Do you like Beyonce’s new song “If I Were a Boy”?
* Yes, and its no longer new .

Okay, who was the last person who held your hand of the opposite sex?
*Avniash . :D

Have you ever kissed someone who’s name started with a J?
* don't think so .

Would you have sex with your last ex?
* HEll NO .

Have you kissed anyone today?
* nope .

When did you last cry?
* can't remember .

Have you ever kissed anyone whose name started with B or K?
* both is a yes (:

Who was the last girl you had a conversation with?
* Jannet .

Who was the last guy you had a conversation with?
* Ashveer .

Who was the last person you were in the car with that isn’t family?
* I forgot .

Last December, were you single?
* yeah .

Do you love the person you last held hands with?:
* Yeah .

Are you in love?
*...

Do you miss an ex boyfriend/girlfriend?
* Noooo .

Is there a friend, boyfriend/girlfriend, or ex that you will never forget?
* many of them .

Would you take an ex back?
* Nope .

Wednesday, April 7, 2010 { 9:47 PM }

Do you even care ? I don't think so .

{ 4:01 PM }

did nothing since i woke up .

Don't think I'll be going temple later , i cant eat any spicy food or anything , throat is freaking pain and all .

I wanna thank those who really cared of me , texting me and all and asking me to drink lots of water etc , for some even called me every 2-3 hrs and ask me to take my temperature .

sometimes i wonder why am i even stuck in this same situation ,
keeping things to myself and telling others that i'm alright .
now all i can do is hope that everything will be alright and be like before ,
I trust you more than myself . if the history repeats , there is no way i'm gonna trust any other guy .

Tuesday, April 6, 2010 { 7:31 PM }

don't feel like blogging . the reason is not because i'm sick , its about what happen jus now .
it was serious unexpected and i didn't like say anything to anyone , how could i even tell them . they don't know the truth . i won't say much already , if you're happy doing all that , then i'm alright .

Sunday, April 4, 2010 { 3:02 PM }

Do you like your phone?
* ummm , its okay uh .

Last alcohol beverage?
* Black Label with coke .

Have you ever slept in a bed with the opposite sex?
* yeah , brother .

Have any of your best friends ever back stabbed you?
* now not at all (:

If you had to move in with a friend, which one would you pick?
* Mishayyy ! :D

What’s the seventh text message in your inbox say?
* "thanks for the help , meet up real soon , so fucking needa tell you smth real important"

What did you do the weekend?
* nothin much .

Met anyone new in the past week?
* yeahh , about 6 of them ?

What does your bestfriends call you?
*kulv , kul , vin , kulu , kuly , kulvy , princess , darling , toilet partner , chuii etc .

Who was the last person to go to the movies with you?
* Wei Ling .

Are you currently fighting with someone?
* Nope . (:

Last time you had butterflies in your stomach?
* umm , 2 weeks ago ?

Who/What would you like to see right now?
* him . (:

Are you mad at someone right now?
* Nope .

What’s the nicest text in your inbox say?
* "you know no matter what happens , you'll still be in my heart , i love you more than i love my boyfriend. Thanks to you , i fell in love with him , became nice to my parents. It really means alot to me. Love ya Sister !" - Jannet

Do you mainly use your house phone or your cell phone?
* It depends actually .

Is there an empty place in your heart?
* haha , maybe ?

Do you count down the days till anything?
* 23rd April (:

Are you looking forward to something as of right now?
* yeahh :D

What are your chances of getting with your crush?
* already with him (:

What is the farthest you’ve traveled with a friend?
* Chiangmai ?

Are any of your friends so close that you consider them family?
* Yes (:

Anyone told you a secret this week?
* yeahh .

Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
* Nope .

Do you hate anyone?
* hahaha , nope .

Last time you wore the opposite sex’s clothing?
* ummm , can't remember .

What do you want in your life right now?
* nothing , i have everythin that i want (:

When was the last time you laughed so hard you thought you were going to cry?
* yesterday .

Did you tell someone something today?
* Obviously I did .

Do you trust people easily?
* Last time . now its a no .

What were you doing at 9pm Friday night?
* Sheesha .

Will you talk to the person you like on the phone tonight?
* don't think so .

Ever had a near death experience?
* yeahh .

Where’s your cell phone?
* digital cam .

What is the last thing you thought about?
* MTV .

Do you regret anything?
* nope .

If you found out you were pregnant who would you tell?
* hahaha , the person who got me pregnant ?

What are you going to do next weekend?
* sat - Cousin's house warming prayers , Band concert and will be going out .
sun - cousin's house warming prayers and nt so sure after that .

When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends?
* 5 mins ago .

Do you prefer revenge or just pure jealousy/envy?
* None .

Who would you like your next “fling” to be with?
* No one . Thankyouverymuch.

Would you curse in front of your parents?
* Nope .

What kind of camera do you have?
* Samsung .

Are you slowly drifting away from someone close?
* kinda .

When was the last time you held someone’s hand?
* Friday . haha

Who can you tell everything to?
* my bestf (:

is any part of your body sore?
* nope .

missing someone right now?
* yeshhh .

is there someone on your mind that shouldn’t be?
* nope .

When was the last time you saw the person you last kissed?
* last week ?

{ 4:24 AM }

Friday, April 2, 2010 { 11:31 PM }

Sometimes i wonder , is this all ?


Today was FUN , Met Jasvin and Eish at Bugis , went to makan and then walked around iluma , since we were damnn bored , we went Arab Street to Sheesha . Around 7+ Jasvin and Eish left , so i joined Vikram , Gurshan , Amrit Pal , Simran . I didn't sheesha with them . Gurpreet and Chandini joined us . I left about 9 since i was tired and all . Oh and Jiv came after i left . Don't worry Jiv, we'll sure meet up one day .

Thursday, April 1, 2010 { 6:30 PM }

Things have changed . i dont know whats happening
Sometimes i wish all this shouldn't have happen , i'm just having the feeling i had 11 months ago .
I don't know what you want and i don't know how to talk to you , sometimes i just feel like you don't care . i'm trying to work things out but if you are not gonna care , then why am i wasting my time ? sometimes i wish i can rewind of whatever happen and make things right . you're suddenly acting weird and i have no say about it .